Do we live to die or we just don’t know why we live
Death is that ultimate reality, that every life has to vanish at some point in life.And if it is not so then what death is? . I don’t know, how different types of people take death of loved ones, a person with whom you spend lot of good time .To me they just disappeared somewhere in space where we can’t see them, but they are around and I believe we are going to meet again with our loved ones who have gone to space of death. And , there are people who believe that person just exists till death , I don’t know for people of such mental perception what life is ,just a vital living tissue who losses its vitality after a particular passage of time ; but i wonder if that is the case then what value does emotions hold for such people.
When someone leaves you to death ,one must be feeling what we are living this life for , are we working hard ,doing all of sort gymnastics –lies ,deceit, keeping over sells abreast with times . Although, I do admit material pleasures is the motivation behind all the gymnastics ,we call life ;but that is not the reason enough for committing ourselves to living life .yes , we need family and friends people who love us ,people who we feel close with ,may be this joy of living life surrounded with family and friends is more than worth to ending one's life at onset of life without going through this complex drama of life to reach end of journey where we are dead.
Recently, one of my close relative , jija died, he died of sudden heart attack, he was suffering from guilty consciousness as he loved his family .I got to know about this yesterday night , for some time I didn’t feel any emotion , not a tint of sadness and went on with my life. My uncle was a complex character or may be not but he was not committed to his family, though he did support his family properly , he did not take proper responsibility in affairs of his family .He was not a good father to his children-rather than motivating and supporting them in there pursuits he was roadblock. Due to his irresponsible outlook for his a family, his family went trough hell.
But I do remember good times I spend with him. To me he was a sort of inspirational figure- tall, robust, fair-complexion and forceful. He always was a attraction in family gatherings , he was very interesting to talk to ,rather a suave speaker except with his close family. Whenever i mull on my uncles character I feel he was not a bad guy , there was great misunderstanding between himself and his family ; He expected a particular way of life and priorities for his children and they wanted something different ,he want them to live a progressive life without worring much about mores and cultural values .But, his children influenced by there mothers’ out look lived life by so called cultural values. Although, such things happen in most of families in India, in there case there family got polarized , children considered there father outsider and Father in turn became insensitive to welfare of his family rather he started to act as dictator than father.
His children did receive proper education but due to lack of there progressive outlook they could not stand hard life and stand by themselves in hard and rough times through which every kasmiri hindu passed in 90’s,added to that there father rather than supporting and encouraging them to withstand the challenge of rough life , he turned a villain –started harassing and intimidating his family , took extremely wrong decisions for future life of his elder daughter.I am in complex situation whether to lable jija a villan or blame his family for not understanding his viewpoint and neglecting him.
But, whatever label he will be given ,I will miss him I will always cherish those happy days our families spend together ,I liked him more than other member in my family. I had dream to relive those happy days with him along with our families. He was most attractive personality in our close circle of relatives , I will miss you jija ji , I will miss all those skits i did with you as a kid , I will remember the day when i didn’t follow your command and you tried to beat me up ,and I ran away from front door of drawing room, you chased me i went in again through window on the front side of room you went in through window and I went out again through front door and finally you gave up and assured me that I will be pardoned……..this particular incident always peps me up when i feel life has become too heavy to live . I remember the way ,I used to annoy you by kicking water pot you used for making shave .i will remember all those times I went out with you shopping and you huddled me with wooden rods for draping curtains , to carry home ….believe me that was best time of my childhood. I will miss you jija ji. Forgive for harsh behaviors when you last visted our family . I will miss you Sir .
I don’t Know why God is in hurry to take your loved ones away from you , I always dreamt that I will bring back those happy days back to you and your family but I was unlucky , but I request Almighty to give me wisdom , strength and resources so that I can take al troubles from your family.MAY GOD BESTOW DIVINE PEACE TO YOUR SOUL
When someone leaves you to death ,one must be feeling what we are living this life for , are we working hard ,doing all of sort gymnastics –lies ,deceit, keeping over sells abreast with times . Although, I do admit material pleasures is the motivation behind all the gymnastics ,we call life ;but that is not the reason enough for committing ourselves to living life .yes , we need family and friends people who love us ,people who we feel close with ,may be this joy of living life surrounded with family and friends is more than worth to ending one's life at onset of life without going through this complex drama of life to reach end of journey where we are dead.
Recently, one of my close relative , jija died, he died of sudden heart attack, he was suffering from guilty consciousness as he loved his family .I got to know about this yesterday night , for some time I didn’t feel any emotion , not a tint of sadness and went on with my life. My uncle was a complex character or may be not but he was not committed to his family, though he did support his family properly , he did not take proper responsibility in affairs of his family .He was not a good father to his children-rather than motivating and supporting them in there pursuits he was roadblock. Due to his irresponsible outlook for his a family, his family went trough hell.
But I do remember good times I spend with him. To me he was a sort of inspirational figure- tall, robust, fair-complexion and forceful. He always was a attraction in family gatherings , he was very interesting to talk to ,rather a suave speaker except with his close family. Whenever i mull on my uncles character I feel he was not a bad guy , there was great misunderstanding between himself and his family ; He expected a particular way of life and priorities for his children and they wanted something different ,he want them to live a progressive life without worring much about mores and cultural values .But, his children influenced by there mothers’ out look lived life by so called cultural values. Although, such things happen in most of families in India, in there case there family got polarized , children considered there father outsider and Father in turn became insensitive to welfare of his family rather he started to act as dictator than father.
His children did receive proper education but due to lack of there progressive outlook they could not stand hard life and stand by themselves in hard and rough times through which every kasmiri hindu passed in 90’s,added to that there father rather than supporting and encouraging them to withstand the challenge of rough life , he turned a villain –started harassing and intimidating his family , took extremely wrong decisions for future life of his elder daughter.I am in complex situation whether to lable jija a villan or blame his family for not understanding his viewpoint and neglecting him.
But, whatever label he will be given ,I will miss him I will always cherish those happy days our families spend together ,I liked him more than other member in my family. I had dream to relive those happy days with him along with our families. He was most attractive personality in our close circle of relatives , I will miss you jija ji , I will miss all those skits i did with you as a kid , I will remember the day when i didn’t follow your command and you tried to beat me up ,and I ran away from front door of drawing room, you chased me i went in again through window on the front side of room you went in through window and I went out again through front door and finally you gave up and assured me that I will be pardoned……..this particular incident always peps me up when i feel life has become too heavy to live . I remember the way ,I used to annoy you by kicking water pot you used for making shave .i will remember all those times I went out with you shopping and you huddled me with wooden rods for draping curtains , to carry home ….believe me that was best time of my childhood. I will miss you jija ji. Forgive for harsh behaviors when you last visted our family . I will miss you Sir .
I don’t Know why God is in hurry to take your loved ones away from you , I always dreamt that I will bring back those happy days back to you and your family but I was unlucky , but I request Almighty to give me wisdom , strength and resources so that I can take al troubles from your family.MAY GOD BESTOW DIVINE PEACE TO YOUR SOUL
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